My sister fell pregnant and sadly miscarried, which resulted in some serious medical treatment afterwards. She powered through and was absolutely amazing. I couldn't love her or David more.
My dad was diagnosed with Motor neurons disease in Sept which completely crippled us all. We think we have problems in every day life but really it's the things that come out of nowhere that just devastate you. My parents are incredible. I owe them everything.
My dad is 1 of the 2 most important men in my life. It just broke my heart into millions of pieces. We are trying our best as a family to cope, that's all we can do.
I have to say the year wasn't all bad. My sister also got engaged and is getting married in 3 months!! Our daughter Kirsty finally became toilet trained, honestly one of our greatest achievements to date.
After 4 years of waiting, I heard the word "Momma" from my beautiful boy Logan and thankfully it wasn't a once off. He says it often now, along with ""dadda" and most recently " nana".
And I'm hoping those words keep coming, like they are with Kirsty. His use of PECS has flourished and he also transitioned to a brand new school which anyone that understands autism will know is incredibly hard to do.
Now it's almost that time again. A new year approaching and thoughts of new resolutions and goals. It's funny, for as long as I can remember I used to pray to be thinner as my resolution. I'd swear every January, "this would be the year I'd do it". Well I did it. I lost the weight this year and yes it makes you happy, but it won't give you everything you need. But it's one less thing to keep me awake at night and for that alone, it was worth it.
For 2018 all I want is peace.
Peace of mind.
Peace at home.
To know that whatever happens, my husband, my children and my family are ok.
At this moment in time that seems impossible. I know nothing will ever be the same for us.
We are facing a tough year ahead and it worries me sick. All we can do is make every day count and be there for each other.
I'd like to thank everyone for reading my blog in 2017. This is my outlet and you've all dried more tears than you'll ever know.
My best wishes for 2018.
Elaine 💙
