Totally off my normal topic of Autism...

This post is about me as a person.  Not a mom, or a carer but just a woman.  I've struggled with my weight my whole life.  It has just always been an issue. Partly because I fecking love food and partly because food loves me!! If I'm sad or stressed it's my comfort, and when I'm happy I celebrate with food. And there's no point in saying " I only have to look at food to pile it on" because it wasn't looking at the food I was doing, it was eating it.🙈
A while ago I joined slimming world.  Over the years, after a back operation, a knee operation and 2 heartbreaking diagnoses for my kids I had let myself go.
The size 16's were getting tight and I wasn't happy. It can be easy as a mom to stop looking after yourself and focus on your kids. But I wanted some bit of myself back so I said I'd try it.
Now I'm not here to preach and say everything has changed and I'm now a model eater. It's tough. I still love food... a lot!! But it definitely helped the way I see food.  And one thing I did get from it was confidence. Before I joined I didn't wear flattering clothes.  I wouldn't have dreamt of leaving the house in a tight jeans and a body suit. I just didn't have the nerve. I looked at myself last night and thought, ok I'm not perfect, but for the first time in years I'm kind of happy with myself.

The jeans were a size 12 and I am super proud.  The belly is still there ( thanks Kirsty and Logan 😂 )and if I wasn't so lazy I could go to a gym and work on my arms but that's ok too. 😂  I'm in no rush to be skinny.  For now I'm just gonna give myself a pat on the back and say  " you've come this far... keep going ".

I know I'm a mom and that's my job... but I'm a girl too. It's good to remember that once in a while.
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